Nationality?

I went to a charming little baby shower this weekend. It was a traditional female only event full of silly little baby games and a smorgasbord of delectable little nibbles. I sat across from a very well kept lady, around my age, although I would say she was far sophisticated in her attire and mannerisms (to the point that she was rigid and a lark) I kept feeling how I could very easily choose to emulate her, with all her stiffness and confines but more and more I am choosing to be colloquial and more free in my presentation. 

I keep wondering if this is a part of my American transformation. Or if this is just honestly who I am supposed to be? My entire early years were spent with constant emulation (emulation is the highest form of praise, so those that I emulated, I only adored you)...to the point that I felt like an empty hollow shell. I could be whom ever you wanted me to be. Yet I had no idea of my 'true self'. My median core value was wistfulness and longing, a haunting longing to be someone else, and never myself. 

Yet my elder years (closer to 30 and to 31) have been on the constant hunt for my 'true self'... yet 'true identity' is also always open to interpretation.

I find that my speech is more varied. I have adopted into my patter the American humour that surrounds me. Yet I have a hard time relinquishing the vowels from my words. I also refuse to say Boo-eeee for buoy. But I am not feint or weak hearted at the thought of floating down a river or hanging out at the lake. Practically any puddle will do. 

And as much as I am adverse to them, I understand the need for paper plates. Never polystyrene (they do not degrade) but paper. 

I think the most major change is instead of seeing the differences, I now see the similarities. I see the humour. I see layers and layers of mirth in common situations. I see the collective force of humanity. 

But honestly, getting back to our rigid aforementioned lady above, I really think I identify most with the rednecks. There are a couple things that really sit well with me when it comes to the redneck identity. 
 * Relaxed and laid back
 * Come as you are, no dress code
*All are welcome, open door policy
* I will treat you like youre part of my family, your kids are my kids, vice versa
* I am going to feed you and fall over myself to keep your cup full
* No airs and graces, what you see is what you get
* Fun loving and outdoorsy. Horses, quad bikes, pools, lakes, rivers, BBQ, sun, mosquitoes and laughter.