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Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Mommy, I am going to live with you forever.

My sweet pea. All of eight years old. The girl who watches so many YouTube tutorials she is full of a fantastical amount of information, some useful, some not so much. She told me how she is going to live with me forever. I think she first started telling me this when she was five and I honestly paid no attention to it, just thinking it was the desperate pleas of childhood to prove some type of rank over the loyalty of her sister. Her sister (12) claims she is going to live in Japan. So then that leaves a lot of time and space for the little one to imagine how easy and cushy her life would be if her big sister were gone.

Firstly the little always wants sleep overs in my bed. Always not an easy thing to accomplish because I am a very light sleeper, I have sleep anxiety related to going to school, studying finance and quantitative management and the like, being able to still go to work and to not sleep through my alarm clock, and the like. Then my boyfriend sleeps over. No room in the bed for three. And thirdly, even though she is the cutest cuddle monster around, she sleeps dead in the foetal position, barely moving, she is a chatterbox and will keep me up all night until she sleeps.

So her plans involving staying with me forever include:
1) changing her sisters' bedroom into a bathroom
2) installing a slide to the basement
3) installing a swimming pool in the basement
4) installing a switch in the slide so we could go downstairs or to the pool, you can choose.
5) not letting her sister use the slide.

It literally only occurred to me how she has been saying she is going to live with me forever since we got divorced in 2015. We separated in 2014. I wonder if she thinks I am going to pack her things up and send her away.

Or I wonder if this is just normal kid behavior. I too wanted to live with my mom forever. I had zero plans to move out :)

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