I think I knew

I think I knew, in the way that I looked at you
Like you were every beginning and never an end
You were this timeless, ageless bridge to all of me, to all that I need.
You were the rarest quality, a true friend.
I think I knew, in the way I looked at you
I looked beyond your wrappings, your dressings,
Your sugar coated exterior, your scent.
I looked beyond your glossy charm, everything that you present.
I looked at your self. I looked at your fears.
I looked at the way you offer yourself to me.
I looked at how it truly matters.
I looked at the depths of how you care.
I think I knew, in the way I looked at me.
One smile from you or a compliment fuels a myriad of endless possibilities.
One wry frond of your tenderness unravels my resolve.
I want to melt into your body, I want to exist somewhere in that realm
Where you think I am so good.
I lie in my bed and think of how much it hurts me.
I can't imagine anyone better than you.