it occurred to me... that if... and only if...
IF. If there were anything left to do, or say, or feel, or cry about. I have already done that. There is nothing more of me left for you. The proverbial barrel was scraped a long, long while ago. I essentially am "empty" when it comes to you. My love has run dry. My patience has met its limit. I am over any past drama, or current drama, or future drama. I don't feel any way about you.
It occurred to me also, that I feel the polar opposite about other people.
I will lay down my life for my kids. Or my brother. Or my sister. Or my mother. Or my father. I will wake up in the middle of the night for my friends. I will drive long distances just to be with other people. I hear their voices and I feel excited, alive, well and refreshed.
You chastise me because I am doing something so "un-christian"... I honestly believe that God will forgive me. He knows my heart.
